where is the trust

today i went to book my trip to bintan. it was supposed to be a happy day, went shopping with my sis. but when i reached home, my mum damn bad mood. she's angry tt i didn't tell her tt i'm going to book the trip today. last nite she was sick n slept early, where got time to see her n tell her. wat the hell. then she said why 2 person only still wanna go? tt time when she was in good mood, she said she can't go then both QQ n i go, n she's ok with it. but now... it's another story. quite unreasonable. everytime she lost at reasoning she will find something else to say. Said tt if anything happen she will not be responsible. cmon, i'm 22 le. if really anything happen i will take full responsibility. n i will not be so stupid n foolish. i'm already an adult, can't she trust me? think i listen to her too much le, from young till now. i noe it's for my own good, but can i have some autonomy in my decision n actions please. r u going to poke into whatever i do until i'm 50??! i wanted to be nice. walked to the bus-stop le then realised i forgot to buy sushi back for her, went back to buy. reached home get tis kinda response. i think i deserve better. hai~ sometimes i really wish i can grow old faster n get a job n be really independant n live my life. until the day i shift out, she will be there to take an active part in watever i do, or wish to do. who's mum still check on ur bank book every week? mine do. who's mum keeps ur passport? mine do. i noe tis is care n concern, but she's putting excessive stress on herself. tis is my relationship, n she put the stress on herself too. her work is already stressful enuh, i noe. it's her character, overly paranoid n high anxiety, tt's why she got hypertension. every night can't sleep properly n wake up in middle of night to check on us. very unhealthy lifestyle. i dun wanna lie to her tt i'm going with other frens. i told the truth, cos i respected her n dun wanna lie. if i had lie, then nothing will happen. now she noes it's just both of us, she's paranoid liao. i did ask frens along, but nobody wanted to go. not as if i purposely wanted just the 2 of us. i dunno.. can't she trust me?? she told me she was once young too, n she noes the temptation etc. but u have to trust ur son. if u don't TRUST me, then there's nothing for me to say. i'm disappointed. tt's why i'm here blogging. is it the generation gap? my sis is perfectly ok, we r in the new millenium, more open minded. it is the generation gap. somehow i wish all parents can move on with the times n there will be less quarrels n arguments. now i'm upset. tis saturday i'm going to pay up for the USA trip, n i think she's gonna jump again. i just have to live with it. sometimes i wish my dad was around to curb her autocratic rule over us.